Its Hypophrenia ..

I really don’t know how I feel…am so pissed off…that too for no reason (actually there is a reason but I don’t what is it.) I wanna get lost somewhere….in some island where there are no humans…its only I,me and myself and nature…ofcourse I cant forget that…I would love to take there 2 pet dogs, atleast they give u unconditional love…this world is full of selfish and mean people…let they be friends or relatives…yes you heard me right…let it be friends or relatives…everyone is so mean so selfish…they just wanna use you and throw you there, as if you are a tissue paper…

Whatever you do for them, how much ever you sacrifice for them…they will just hear for a while and show that they really care…but they don’t…its just SHOW OFF…there are only one in thousand who really care..people will always see their convenience first..how heartless this GOD’S CREATION IS..i wish I too was heartless. Just like others..not giving a damn to any shitty things..because of whom I cry…but no value for my tears..yes I cry not because am emotional fool or weak its just because I have been strong for too long….the feeling when you are so sad even music can’t make you feel better…situation turns even worst..i tell people that am getting tired these days but actually am sad and depressed..yes I keep telling lies because there is no other option..it just reminds me of the quote “everything good dies here, even the stars”. I really wish I was born as a dog, atleast I could be loyal because now a days being good is really a big thing. This HYPOPHRENIA is killing me…I really wana kick hard someone’s ass … I wana start punching someone but yet again I don’t know whom.. :/  Everyday every sunrise gives me the hope that everything will fall into its place but expectations always come with disappointments..i am tired of making things better..i am tired of being used..i am tired of yelling…I am tired of crying..i am tired of holding a happy mask. YES..I AM TIRED. I just want to thank one thing and that’s nature because that’s the only thing you can be sure that will never leave you. The girl who cracks heck number of jokes, never gives you a sign of being sad is the same girl who is best at hiding her feelings. It very difficult to trust anybody until you know them for like three four years. The sad part is loosing your best friend..one fine morning they just stop texting you..ignore you because they don’t like you…they break promises ..they ignore you and forget all those memories which you have spend together?? And the worst part is they don’t even tell you why they suddenly stopped talking, that moment is so freaking that you realize that you are not even worth an explanation. They just forget you when they get new friends or when they get into a relationship..This world is full of selfish people around..including friends, bestfriends, relatives (I know I am repeating). I am losing my bestfriend too..but now I think its good atleast there is no one who can hurt me. Being a human being sucks. :’(  :’(  :’(


P.S - Sometimes writing is one of the best thing to let it all out :|