To the wonderful person I have known .. Menaka Lalwani :*

A wonderful person inside and out,
indeed a humble one, no doubt.

Sweeter than honey and smarter than me,

Whenever you talk, all you bring is glee.

That day in Inorbit Mall was a new life to me,

All the sadness and lonliness totally flee.

You are like an angel sent to me by God,

Your kindness and innocence is worth an applaud.

Having you in my life, makes me feel proud,

It’s like finding a heart in a heartless crowd.

I don’t love you because you are a star,

I love you because a beautiful human you are.

Feeling LOVED *blushing*

Its Hypophrenia ..

I really don’t know how I feel…am so pissed off…that too for no reason (actually there is a reason but I don’t what is it.) I wanna get lost somewhere….in some island where there are no humans…its only I,me and myself and nature…ofcourse I cant forget that…I would love to take there 2 pet dogs, atleast they give u unconditional love…this world is full of selfish and mean people…let they be friends or relatives…yes you heard me right…let it be friends or relatives…everyone is so mean so selfish…they just wanna use you and throw you there, as if you are a tissue paper…

Whatever you do for them, how much ever you sacrifice for them…they will just hear for a while and show that they really care…but they don’t…its just SHOW OFF…there are only one in thousand who really care..people will always see their convenience first..how heartless this GOD’S CREATION IS..i wish I too was heartless. Just like others..not giving a damn to any shitty things..because of whom I cry…but no value for my tears..yes I cry not because am emotional fool or weak its just because I have been strong for too long….the feeling when you are so sad even music can’t make you feel better…situation turns even worst..i tell people that am getting tired these days but actually am sad and depressed..yes I keep telling lies because there is no other option..it just reminds me of the quote “everything good dies here, even the stars”. I really wish I was born as a dog, atleast I could be loyal because now a days being good is really a big thing. This HYPOPHRENIA is killing me…I really wana kick hard someone’s ass … I wana start punching someone but yet again I don’t know whom.. :/  Everyday every sunrise gives me the hope that everything will fall into its place but expectations always come with disappointments..i am tired of making things better..i am tired of being used..i am tired of yelling…I am tired of crying..i am tired of holding a happy mask. YES..I AM TIRED. I just want to thank one thing and that’s nature because that’s the only thing you can be sure that will never leave you. The girl who cracks heck number of jokes, never gives you a sign of being sad is the same girl who is best at hiding her feelings. It very difficult to trust anybody until you know them for like three four years. The sad part is loosing your best friend..one fine morning they just stop texting you..ignore you because they don’t like you…they break promises ..they ignore you and forget all those memories which you have spend together?? And the worst part is they don’t even tell you why they suddenly stopped talking, that moment is so freaking that you realize that you are not even worth an explanation. They just forget you when they get new friends or when they get into a relationship..This world is full of selfish people around..including friends, bestfriends, relatives (I know I am repeating). I am losing my bestfriend too..but now I think its good atleast there is no one who can hurt me. Being a human being sucks. :’(  :’(  :’(


P.S - Sometimes writing is one of the best thing to let it all out :|

Yes..I miss YOU :(

I miss you so very much

I still can't forget the first touch

by now am sure you don't remember me

but my unconditional love you didn't see.

I wish you could look back into my eyes

which now-a-days only cries

I wish you could feel the pain

by then you would turn insane.

i don't have courage to listen songs which previously i used to play

because it brings lots of memories and mould me just like a clay

I miss the butterflies i used to get when i see you

your memories have sticked to my heart as if i have put glue.

I still remember the puppy - dog face you used to make

and how sweetly yummy cake you used to bake

how calmly you used to whisper that i was no. 1 on your priority list

now destiny is responsible for all the twist.

How cutely you used to play with my curly hair

which, at that time i never used to bare

how sweetly you used to kneel and say sorry

and repeat those words "i ll never do it again my pari"

How jealous you used to be when i was talking to a stranger

even if the other guy was questioning about the career

I miss all those things badly

how we were in love madly.

I miss the bond and understandings we had

I wish i could clear all those misunderstandings and get you back

You said "it's over" and walked away

and left thousands of memories all on my way.